HOPEFULLY stuff starts working *MY* way soon.

joe made me aware of the email that amy sent me and she confirmed the meeting on monday that i was supposed to have on friday (except amy was sick and we couldn't have it then). she requested that i make out a list of services i currently have in minnesota that will need to be moved to massachusetts. i've already started calling pca agencies to find out a little about them and i listed the names and numbers on my computer during the past few weeks. i also need my cpap services switched over because i KNOW that i won't be able to fall asleep. then my bed rails (and my trapeze on my hospital bed) and walker (i'll probably need a vendor to repair my walkers if and when they need to be repaired). these are just SOME of the services i'll need switched over- i don't have many more since i don't do any rehabilitation therapy or college anymore. i'll need a new job coach though. i just hope she'll actually show up on monday because i'm not sure the apartment will take anymore delays in signing the papers for the apartment before completely dropping me off the list (even though the ics CLAIMS that i have 2 more apartment offers before i get completely dropped off the list and i have to wait at least 4 years to come up on the waiting list again more than likely). i hope to take the opportunity to actually become more able to do things independently without being preached on to go to courage kenny by relatives who don't give a shit about my actual situation and my progression in rehab. so they're basically USELESS to me(except to make courage kenny appear "helpful" when they think putting clients on machines my living room wall could operate but they care more about how supportive it makes THEM look to other people- or to get them closer to their in-laws and appear as good people) OR without people automatically assuming i'm incapable of doing things (i suppose there ARE things i'll still require assistance with but i hope this will make me more independent and able to do more things when i move to massachusetts). i will also have more privacy and i won't have bums stalking me in hopes to magically turn into me when they haven't been through HALF the shit i have. they foolishly get the impression that since we have the same DNA- things will work out for them like it worked out for me. it's one thing to be "inspired" by someone but it gets annoying when people who are supposedly supposed to be "supporting" you get enabled to keeping you from completing your goals just so you can be by the people stalking you when YOU DIDN'T GO THROUGH ALL THIS SHIT IN LIFE TO STAY IN THE COMFORT ZONE OF A FAMILY WHO ONLY "CARES" AT THEIR OWN CONVENIENCE AND BENEFIT. YOU'RE EXPECTED TO GIVE UP EVERYTHING YOU WORKED YOUR ASS OFF FOR THE CONVENIENCE OF PEOPLE WHO JUST PAY ATTENTION TO YOU AT THEIR OWN BENEFIT AND CONVENIENCE- SO THEY APPEAR SUPPORTIVE OR CARING OR WHATEVER OTHER BULLSHIT EMOTION NARCISSISTICAL HEIFERS HAVE. JUST STOP PRETENDING AND LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE. I GOT MYSELF THIS FAR AND I'M NOT STOPPING HERE FOR ANYONE'S CONVENIENCE OR BENEFIT.